Saturday, August 28, 2004

She remembered..... =D


You might have been reading about how little things matter to me. Do you know anyone else who'd be as happy as a lark when someone sends them an SMS on their birthday?

I guess I've been living in denial. Always saying that I'm not hoping for much - but the irony was that I kept hoping for this and that. At work, I kept checking my phone whenever I had the chance to see if SW had sms-ed me. And everytime I looked, there was nothing. I'd be lying through my teeth if I said I wasn't disappointed.

On the morning of 24th August, I came out of the shower after work and saw the birthday sms that SW had sent me. The weeks before had me wondering if she remembered. I guess she did after all. So I don't get to celebrate my birthday with her this year as we both planned before. The sms she sent meant alot to me.

Of course when her birthday came up 2 days later, I sent her wishes as well. Still, I haven't spoken a word to her. It's been more than a month now I think.

That's the problem with technology now, if you can call it one. Before sms was created, it was strictly the phones. If people got into an argument and one party refuses to talk to the other - it ends up with phones ringing and being unanswered. Right now, we have another level of filter for communication, which is the sms. I can count my blessings since she's replying my messages.

JC has been a darling as well, sending me a sms to wish me Happy Birthday as well. It's her birthday today - so if you're reading this "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!".

So - yeah I had to work on my birthday and I wasn't feeling well. National Day's coming up and I have to work as well. Management has requested that we come dressed in traditional clothes. Looks like I have to go shopping then. Some of them are asking me to get a "jeepa" (thanks to Pooi San for reminding me what its called =D). Said I should get the long one because I'm tall.

Vicky (short for Viknesh) was planning to go watch "Alien Vs. Predator" today. But he hasn't called and neither did he reply my sms. Guess not. Some other time then. Maybe tomorrow after I go shopping. As for tonight, I might take a drive down to Mayang Jaya and get some DVDs. Don't know why I'm becoming obsessed with getting some DVDs of old movie favourites and maybe some series as well.

Monday, August 23, 2004

Cheese Overdose.....


The weekend's over. Took a trip to Genting Highlands with the family and stayed a night there. It's been some time since I was last up there. Nothing's changed much as far as I could tell. But the weather was a nice change. Spent most of my time there watching movies - "Twin Effect 2" and "I,Robot". I guess there's alot of catching up to do. So many movies that I want to watch yet so little time. I guess next on my list would be "Aliens Vs. Predator". The last time I watched a movie (2 movies, back to back, rather) was "Spiderman 2" and "The Prince and I" with SW. I think its been more than 1 month since I saw her.

So anyway, we put up a night at Awana and had buffet breakfast the next morning. They had a cheese platter. And I just love cheese. I think the amount of cheese that I consumed was well worth the price of the buffet! But one thing's for sure, I'm going to stay away from Blue Cheese for some time now. It was stinky - but according to Tony Bourdain (ASTRO Channel 11, Discovery Travel and Adventure "A Cook's Tour") - the stinkier the better. I took this piece of 3 cm x 3 cm x 3 cm piece of Blue Cheese. A word of advice - best consumed in small quantities. The cheddar cheese cubes were excellent. So there we go,
cheese overdose. Not that I'm complaining.

Happy Birthday to me. It's my birthday when clock strikes 12 tonight. All the plans that SW and I made earlier are going down the drain. I wonder if she'll sms me tonight?

OK - so there're other reasons to be happy about. Payday's coming up soon. Been trying to budget and I think it works.Yay! How time flies. Another month's gone by.

Time to go off for a shower, then to get some sleep. My body's aching. Shit - seems to happen when I come back from trips. And my legs are giving me the shits again.

Monday, August 16, 2004

Signs.....

I don't know how many people read the Malay Mail. A lot of people claim its a tabloid paper and rightly so. Lots of articles and scandals in it most of the time. There was an eye catching article just sometime last week. It was about crop circles appearing somewhere in the United Kingdom - the End of The World is supposedly in 2012 according to the Mayan Calender.

Crop circles were the theme in M. Night Syamalan's move "The Signs". The article made interesting reading though it was pretty short. People claim that the crop circles appeared overnight, while there are the usual ones that said it was the work of detailed and precision planning. So is the world really ending in 8 years? Who knows? The truth is out there.....Some links here

http://www.bbc.co.uk/wiltshire/content/articles/2004/08/10/moonraking_crop_circle_blake_100804_feature.shtml

http://www.diagnosis2012.co.uk/cro.htm (lots of photographs of past "discoveries")

Of course "Signs" here just doesn't mean the movies or the crop circles. I've finally sms-ed SW after more than 2 weeks. I couldn't wait. I didn't want to. It was just general things that I asked her. She finally replied.
I sent a reply to her reply but there was nothing after that. Of course I sent that sms after midnight. I wasn't really expecting a reply. I told her to gimme a buzz when she wants to meet up. This time, I won't be placing too much hope.

That was a good sign. Hopefully a sign that we can still be friends.

It feels like I've wasted my weekends away lately. I sleep through most of Saturdays now since I get home early Saturday mornings. Christian and Elida were flying back to San Diego this weekend. They all wanted to meet up at Planet Hollywood on Saturday night. It would have been good to hang out with them but I had a sore throat and my legs started to ache abit again. Azhar sms-ed and said they would be going to Ampang for karaoke but I decided to stay home. I guess it would be better since I won't be enjoying myself anyway. So its only Jorge for the next week before he goes back to San Diego this weekend.

Work isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Even so, 3 girls have already handed in their resignations. One's got a dream job, she studied Bio-Chemistry or something like that and got a job at a pharmacy/lab. One can't take the working hours while I didn't get to talk to the 3rd one. In fact, I don't think I ever talked to her much before.

Basically this work isn't as stressful as IT work I suppose. A few of us have been discussing what's going to happen now that people have started to resign. My points are that once we log off at 7 am after work, we're done. We don't have to bring home any remaining work, no overtime. Basically its a good deal for the amount I'm getting. At least I don't have to pull out my hair thinking the best way for coding a damn software program =D

I woke up a couple of times this morning, at 2 am, 5 am then finally before 9 am. My eyes are all teary. I slept before 9 pm last night, I don't think it's because of lack of sleep. I might need to go get some more rest.

Monday, August 09, 2004

What a week.....


Things at work are getting crazier with each passing day. At the moment, we're taking about 30 - 40% of the calls routed from San Diego. All that's about to change. I think once Tranch 3 starts taking calls, we'll be handling 50% of the calls. Last week was pretty intense. Answering close to 40 calls per day - and to think that's just 1/3 of what the Reps are doing in the US office! The week was pretty good - majority of the calls were good. Only had a few of them shouting at me. One of them was the husband of the customer. The customer was in a car crash, lying in a hospital bed with a broken neck. Policy states I couldn't talk to the husband because his name is not on the loan. I tried to tell him that then he started shouting, stating that we (as in the Company I suppose) have no "goddamn sympathy for no one!". I had the call escalated to Jorge and he got cussed at too.

I've been a good customer my whole life, I never made things difficult for anyone. Or rather I try as much as I can not to. To all of you reading this who's NOT in customer service, just a word of advice - Don't Shoot The Messenger! We're just doing our job. Some people don't get paid enough for this I reckon. Me? I'm pretty satisfied with the amount I'm getting to get a shouting or scolding once in a while.

Yesterday, I spent about RM 500 on videogames. Some of you might think "RM 500 on a new machine etc isn't too bad". Reality is that I spent that amount on 3 tiny discs. Can't help it if originals cost a bomb. It's no wonder people turn to pirated stuff. Imagine how long this would last time for them to get their "fix". There's nothing much I can do about it since there's no pirated stuff I can get for these. I'll just have to live with that if I still wanna continue getting games for my Gamecube.

I've been having this backache for a few days now. It's on and off. I don't know if I'm not sleeping right or I'm sitting up for too long at work. It's been giving me the shits. If it's not the back, its the legs. I'm getting pissed off at myself. Ever since that gym "accident" my legs have been giving me troubles. I don't know if its some permanent effect to my muscles and I don't want to go have it checked out. Have some friends telling me to get an X-ray.

Some managers told me it could be because of the cold at work. Honestly that's the first time I've ever heard cold weather giving people cramps. But they're older people, I guess they know what they're talking about?

I've also had this weird dream that I've had.In fact, I've had this dream a few times now. In the dream, I always have some of my teeth falling out. Is it a sign? That I should be taking better care of them? Shit. It's a scary thought.

I think its been about 3 weeks since I last heard from SW. I've kept my promise thus far, the promise to her that I'll call her less. I haven't dialled her number for 3 weeks now. I haven't even sent her a single SMS this whole time. It's not easy, it hurts. Sure I still think about her. I still wonder if she's still mad at me.
She hasn't SMS-ed or called me either. I wonder if its the "Waiting Game" we're both palying now. We're both waiting to see who makes the first move. Maybe she's waiting for me to contact her first before she'll reply. It could be an ego thing. I don't know. I don't mind putting that aside. As long as she's not mad anymore.

Personally I was thinking of waiting until the 26th of August to send her a message. It'll be her birthday. Sometimes I wonder if she still remembers mine, if she will send me a SMS or call me on mine. We actually made plans to celebrate our Birthday's together this year.


Funny how things can just turn 180 degrees in a split second. The wrong time, the wrong day, the wrong mood. One mistake, just one wrong word - and sometimes, there's no turning back.

They told me to forget her, told me to move on. It seems like the right thing to do but I always believe in hope and that silver lining. Could this be called "never giving up easily"? I worry that I might regret the decision but here's something I want to share:


Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

And in a world on a silver platter
And wondering what it means
No one to share, no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

Monday, August 02, 2004

The Reason.....


Hoobastank - The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I found the reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

- Hoobastank -

She liked this song alot. And it kind of rubbed off on me. I must admit its a catchy song. I could learn to like it on my own. It was OUR song. But she doesn't know it. She won't get a chance to find out, she probably never will.

Met a new friend yesterday, Jason. Don't know if I can call him a friend yet. Helpful dude who works for a videogame shop. I guess that's good for me. I placed orders from him for a Freeloader ver 1.06B and Metal Gear Solid: Twin Snakes for the GameCube. This might sound Greek to you. No worries. I'm not expecting all of you to know. Spent money on myself yesterday. Bought some XBOX games. Need to take my mind off. As long as I'm happy. I better be happy when I'm going to spend close to RM 400 for two tiny little discs.

Will be working 10 pm - 7am for the next 3 weeks. Oh, won't that be fun. At least I get to have more sleep in the afternoons.