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Day: 198 (Thursday, 4th July 2002)
Status: Full Time - Week # 1
Days without PS2: 0 day(s)
Days without Cube: 5 day(s)
Listening to: Milestone - I Care About You
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I just had a fucking nightmare. I know I haven't updated this journal for a few days now but I just thought I had to write about it (my nightmare) before I forgot about it. It's just that work has been a little hectic but nothing much of interest to write about. It's 5.22 am on Thursday morning.

In my dream, I went off with mum to go look at PS2 for Ryan. Earlier before that, Ryan hinted that he wanted one, by asking how much was the PS2 selling for. Even mum knew the price, which was $ 399. I decided to take mum to the shop to have a look while we told Daphne and Ryan to wait there for us.

I realise now that the dream occurred in Australia, perhaps to be more specific, in Melbourne. Because I saw trams at the end of the dream before I was awakened.

Me and mum walked some way to a complex, and had a look in the store. It was a weird store. Mum asked about the PS2 and the GameCube. The Asian guy at the shop showed us a weird-looking compact GameCube which was shaped like a oval lunchbox thinggy, with a built-in screen. It was a bulky looking thing. After browsing in the store, we went off, going back to where Ryan and Daphne were waiting. Along the way, I was trying to convince mum to get the PS2 for Ryan. He was earlier in tears because he mentioned that one of the Final Fantasy websites are no longer accessible. I remember thinking to myself that I would want to exchange the boxes with him if mum bought him the PS2. I remember thinking that I would want the plain, blue-coloured PS2 box and give him the one with Final Fantasy X in exchange. The funny thing is, I don't have a FFX-PS2 box. What I have is the GT3-PS2 box.

As we were going back to the spot where Daphne and Ryan were waiting, I heard someone crying. I listened harder and it sounded familiar. It was Ryan who was crying. There was a small crowd there, and I saw this Australian guy trying to talk to Ryan. Ryan was trying to move away from the guy. As me and mum approached closer, I heard the guy say "Where did they go? Up or down?". My first thought was that me and mum were gone for too long and people must have thought they were lost or something.

I remember saying to the guy "Thanks mate, it's alright. He's my brother." He mentioned something but I wasn't really paying attention. I was looking around for Daphne. Then I heard the guy mention "Jumped off". It was then I started paying attention to what he was saying. He then said again "She jumped off from the 4th floor." and pointed upwards. He was shaking his head and they walked away. I focused my sight to where he was pointing and I noticed that we were under a pedestrian bridge. I looked down and I saw Daphne lying there, on a road divider, laying in a crumpled heap. It looked as though her body was twisted and broken. I saw that her legs and hips were in positions that showed they were broken, 180 degrees from their original positions. I heard mum scream, Ryan was still crying. I screamed too. I shouted at Ryan to just stay put.

I wanted to rush over to check on her but the cars were speeding by. I looked to the right to see if there were more cars but the cars were just coming non-stop and I saw a green and yellow tram.

Then I woke up. I checked the time and it was 4.37 am. I tried to sleep but I couldn't. Tried to call PF but her phone is switched off. I just thought I needed to talk to someone. There's no one I can talk to at this hour. I know there might be people who won't mind, but I know it isn't very nice to wake them up from their sleep over something like this. Thought of calling CE but decided against it. She's probably sleeping and has to work today. Don't want to wake her.

Couldn't go back to sleep and I started thinking. All I can say is that the numbers, 4 and 7, seem to have some significance today. It is the 4th of July. 4th day of the 7th month. The time was 4.37 am. Take a look at the digits. 4(again), 3 and 7. Add the first two digits, 4 + 3, and you get 7 again. It's Thursday morning, 4th day of the week. It's all just too weird.

Whoever's reading this, maybe you ought to place bets on the numbers 4 and 7. Magnum 4D or TOTO back in Malaysia. Get 4747 or something.

It's 5.43 am. I can't post this now because DT has turned off his pc. He's mentioned before that he has to turn his pc off and not leave it on 24/7 as he normally does if he wants his harddisk to live longer. I think I should go back to get some more shut-eye. Have my alarm set for 8 am, to get ready for work at 10.30 am later on.